My great grandfather Walter Seelheim was a Jew and he married Augusta, who went to the protestant church. Neither my great grandfather Walter nor my great grandmother Augusta was actively engaged in their respective faith communities. As a result, my family is one of those families that ended up agnostic.
I was a teenager when I started looking for God. My assumption was, there’s a Creator who is responsible for all life forms and who also created me. If that was the case, if this Creator existed, I wanted to get to know Him. So began my quest to find God.
It turned out that God is not dead after all; God spoke to me as I was reading one of the books of King Solomon, the Song of Songs in the Old Testament, and I quote (Song of Songs 1:15):
“How beautiful you are, my
Oh, how beautiful!
Your eyes are doves.”
At this very moment I realized that God addressed me with these words; for the first time in my life I felt God’s presence. From then on, I knew He was real. That’s how it went.
Can you imagine my shock when somebody told me a few days later that I wasn’t a believer unless I received Jesus in my heart? I can still recall the confusion over the matter.
I don’t know about you, but I had the hardest time coming to terms with God being Three. When I set out to seek God, I only looked for One not three. For the longest time I simply embraced the Trinity as part of the Christian doctrine even though I could not relate to it. I think my great grandfather wouldn’t have done it – certainly not my grandfather who was known to have shoved a visiting clergyman down the stairs with the advice to never return; and certainly not my mother who still has a deep-seated mistrust against all things “church”.
God compelled me to dig deeper though. This is the beauty of faith: it’s organic and it grows; so does our understanding of God. It took me a while, but I came to appreciate that the Trinity is an essential part of who God is. We call Jesus the Son of God, because that’s a good way to describe the close-knit relationship the Trinity has. We call God the Father of creation, because a parent is what we can relate to. We came from parents and at some point in our lives we fully depended on their parenting skills. We call God the Spirit or the Holy Spirit because we know it took a life-giving Spirit to turn our planet blue and green. And it’s thanks to His Spirit that I heard God speaking to my heart as I was reading King Solomon’s Song of Songs.
For many the hardest thing about God is His invisibility. Jesus solved that problem. He was very visible when He grew up in Nazareth and toured Israel to minister to the people. To this day, His teachings are very tangible because He walked among us.
The greatest hang-up though is probably our distance from God. We are born selfish and we will die selfish unless we accept the gift coming from the Son of God. His sacrifice happened in real time a couple of millennia ago and effectively removed the barrier between humankind and the Godhead. We have access to God’s throne room because Jesus made it happen. We are back to speaking terms with God because Jesus prays on our behalf as He sits in the place of honor at the right hand of the majestic God in heaven. That’s the power of the Trinity: Together they make things right for us.
God is truly amazing!